One Split Second

I’m not the one who complains about ‘this year this’ or ‘this year that’. To me yes, the years go by, but it’s a day to day in my mind. January 1st isn’t the day I walk around screaming, ‘this year will be better than last year’. Life doesn’t end or begin by a date. It’s a mind set and how you take each day with nothing or your everything. You choose that moment… until one split second of anything out of your control that stops everything!

This year has done nothing but sucked! Now remember… I’m not the person who talks like that, but in this very moment looking back on the last 3.5 months… yeah it’s sucking bad! I could list it all for you, but it’s not even 8:00 in the morning so I don’t want to set my Monday to the blahs. I will say this as we are quarantined without access as easily as before, for the last 24 hours we have sat without electricity because of storms. We live in the country so when our power is out, so is our water. We finally have a small generator that keeps my TV on and refrigerator on and I’m happy about that! However with the virus we have been dealing with, we stocked up even more than normal to our two big freezers we have without power to them for a day. I wasn’t worried about the meats we worked so hard to stock yesterday, but this morning, I’m starting to worry a little. What happens if we lose it all? I know we will survive, but the worry of watching my husband running around making sure I am comfortable is making me sad. He is working it hard.

On top of no power after the storms yesterday, today the temperature dropped to the 40’s and we have no heat other than the fireplace my husband just started up for us as I write through my smartphone on my couch. The middle of April shouldn’t be in the 40’s, but along with this weird ‘year’, I’m really not surprised at this point.

I’m about to scream if they don’t hurry up and help us, I’m about to cry because I’m cold, I’m about to lose it if I am anymore uncomfortable! I’ve got shit to do for work and I need a shower now! Me me me! Yes this sucks!!! We can’t leave to get away from our home because there is no where to go, we use to use the gym down the road to take showers and refresh, yet they are closed because well Covid…. so here we sit looking a mess, using rain water to help flush the toilets… almost out of that too! Ugh what the hell!

Feeling this way is how I feel right now… and then I sat down to watch the News.. the very thing I hate watching these days…

UNTIL I seen storm damage to beautiful homes in Louisiana! Windows busted out, trees laying in kitchens, no electricity, no more roofs and ceilings, no more anything other than the sky they now can see from their living rooms. OMG!!! I have my roof still in tact, I still have my trees in the ground, I have someone with me today so I don’t have to deal with a non functioning house… this all sucks…. but God be with those who have to rebuild everything from that ONE SPLIT SECOND storm that whipped through the south.

We are resilient more than we know. We are stronger even when we are scared and worried about all things we purposely planned ahead on… we stink, we ugly, but we together even if we’re aggravated! I pray for everyone for everything today. We have to learn love and live… rebuild and grow! This sucks! It’s tough! We don’t have time to deal with bad weather because we already have a bad virus… it’s hard to be in a stay at home order when our homes are not working properly… but I pray and I scream that this ‘year’ will subside with all the surprises!

Let’s pray. Use A minute to stop that next terrible ONE SPLIT SECOND… and know that someone else is dealing way worse than you… even though yours is bad too.. we will be ok and possibly a lot better when we get through this storm of 2020.